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What I read & what I lived …

The A-Z of You and Me (NetGalley)
James Hannah
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I read James Hannah’s new novel The A-Z of You and Me in two sittings. How could I not? The story might be a little familiar to some readers with shades of The Love Story of Miss Queenie Hennessey, My Name is Lucy Barton, and even If I Stay. But this protagonist is 40, male, and has lived a life dancing on the edge of addiction, never quite growing up.

Ivo is in hospice–it’s come to that. He’s a diabetic and his kidneys are failing, his lifestyle not much help keeping the disease ina-z of you and me check. Nurse Sheila has been a sort of coach in the week he’s been at St. Leonard’s, but he’s “no better, no worse”. It’s a waiting game, is all, and Sheila’s job seems to be to get Ivo to the end with no loose ends. (With her understated wisdom and calm encouragement, I think Sheila might have been my favorite character.) She suggests he play the “A-Z” game–think of a body part for each letter of the alphabet and “tell a little story about each part” to keep his mind sharp.

And so we get the story of Ivo’s life–and great love–one letter at a time. Adam’s apple, Back, and Eyes, Feet, Intestine, and Jugular. One letter at a time we meet his mates Mal and Laura and Kelvin and Beth. Their life in the fast lane, drinking and drugging. Driftless too long into their adult years, their friendship doesn’t even put the ‘fun’ in dysfunctional and it’s a dreary life.

But then there’s Mia. Always Mia–cheering Ivo on from inside his head: “You have to try. You have to keep going forward … You’re better than this.” Missing Mia. His ex, Ivo calls her. Yet the wool blanket she knit for him as a birthday present years ago (the one Sheila dug from his bag and folded over him) still wraps him in memories of when they were together.

It surprised me a bit that a novel about dying could be funny. But parts of A-Z are humorous in a wry and witty kind of way.

Still, it’s a hard story to read–especially if you’ve watched someone up close deal with addiction or chronic disease. There’s no great moment of illumination for Ivo in his hard-won end … just a series of flashes that lighten his wait and ease–even just a bit–the pain of leaving.

Kent StateShe was twenty-one, page-boyed and wide-eyed. She carried groceries from the car and up the steps to the porch, the winding walks of the campus curving behind her across the street. Her wool knee socks and penny loafers were the campus uniform that fall and rarely did anyone fail to turn and look as she passed, tall. All auburn with legs up to here.

He followed her into the house, the shadow to her light, leather satchel and rolled prints under his arm. His turned up shirtsleeves were smudged with graphite and he was always five-o-clock shadowed by noon. 

It was a time that should have been oh-so-simple, what with Saturday card parties and football games. Rye bread at the bakery for twenty-five cents. The white Plymouth Valiant.

A time now melted away like the frozen custard that dripped down their little girl’s chin and left her sticky with memories.

Today is day 24 of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge.  The challenge began with A on April 1 and continues the alphabet throughout thethe little grey mouse month, except on Sundays. My theme for the month will be this blog’s tagline: life, books, and all things bookish, so you can expect a little bit of this ‘n that. I’m still reading, though, and I’ll add reviews whenever possible. Thirty days of blogging is a huge commitment for me, but I’m looking forward to meeting and greeting new blog friends.
Today’s word are letters: X, Y, Z

All good things must come to an end. There’s that slurpy ice cream at the bottom of a cone and the last dip of a chip at a party. There’s the credits rolling at the end of movie, the last gift opened at Christmas, one final bunch of lilacs until next May, the walk across the stage at high school graduation, and one last trip to the beach in August. There’s closing a book read straight through the day (and night).  Sooner rather than later, there will be one last day of school, one last hug.

I’ve met some new-to-me bloggers and read so many great posts I had a hard time keeping up. I’m grateful to the A-Z Blogging Challenge team for the time and energy they gave to keep the project running smoothly.

But all good things must come to an end–even the alphabet X Y Z.

So this is my X marks the spot. My thanks for the memories.

Today is day 23 of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge.  The challenge began with A on April 1 and continues the alphabet throughout thew month, except on Sundays. My theme for the month will be this blog’s tagline: life, books, and all things bookish, so you can expect a little bit of this ‘n that. I’m still reading, though, and I’ll add reviews whenever possible. Thirty days of blogging is a huge commitment for me, but I’m looking forward to meeting and greeting new blog friends.
Today’s word: Wilder, Laura Ingalls

Last summer I wrote about my trip to Little House in the Big Woods (Part 1 & Part 2) in Pepin, Wisconsin. This summer I’ve got my heart set on Little House on the Prairie in De Smet, South Dakota. It will be a long haul and the hubs doesn’t seem to think he can take time off from work to go with, so I’ll be solo again. But I’ve got a new car, Google maps, and a whole lotta time, so I say why not?

A few weeks ago, I added to my Laura Ingalls Wilder collection with The Selected Letters of Laura Ingalls Wilder by William Anderson; the author gave a book talk about his latest work at our local independent bookstore, Schuler Books. Anderson has had a lifelong love for all William Andersonthings Wilder. In college he worked at the Ingalls home in De Smet as an intern: a tour guide, researcher, and fixer-upper. That connection with the Wilder name continued even after he began his teaching career in Michigan. Anderson has written four children’s books about the famous author and a travel book (which I used, incidentally, on my trip to Pepin).

Selected Letters is a more scholarly work, and will make a great companion to Pioneer Girl, Wilder’s annotated bibliography. When I was in Pepin, I read the Big Woods chapter before I visited the museum and home site. I’ll do the same with that book for De Smet, but add Anderson’s Selected Letters to my TBR pile.

William Anderson’s talk was personal and informative. He is sincere and genuine with a great commitment to Laura Ingalls Wilder’s legacy, and he spoke warmly about Wilder almost as if she were a favorite elderly aunt. He chatted with attendees afterwards, signed books with a smile–and could have been a Famous Author character written right into one of the Little House books had the time and place been different.

Today is day 22 of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge.  The challenge began with A on April 1 and continues the alphabet throughout theverse month, except on Sundays. My theme for the month will be this blog’s tagline: life, books, and all things bookish, so you can expect a little bit of this ‘n that. I’m still reading, though, and I’ll add reviews whenever possible. Thirty days of blogging is a huge commitment for me, but I’m looking forward to meeting and greeting new blog friends.

Today’s word: verse

No way could I do an April blogging challenge and not mention poetry. I mean, April being National Poetry Month and me being an English teacher and all. I’ve read some of the other participants shout outs to poetry and they ranged from sharing one’s own poem to listing favorite poets.

poetry

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Several years ago my husband and I stumbled on an announcement buried in the newspaper: poet laureate Billy Collins and poet Naomi Shahab Nye were reading at the local university, and the evening was free and open to the public. We felt like we had stumbled upon a little slice of heaven. Collins was personable and warm, his poetry so accessible. Shahab Nye was as well. There was something about listening to their reading live that resonated. Shortly after that evening, I started following the Poetry Out Loud YouTube channel. This national competition for high school students focuses on the recitation of poetry in a powerful and meaningful way. The kids are incredible. Here’s one of my favorites, Bilingual/Bilingue. 

As often happens when one falls down the internet rabbit hole, I somehow landed on a spoken word channel. And fell in love. Now I’ll be honest–some spoken word is just a bit too edgy and profane for me. I don’t like to be yelled at and I don’t like every other word to be a f&@k or worse. But if you look long enough and hard enough, you’ll find some gems like Taylor Mali and Phillip Kaye and Sarah Kay. Sarah of the beautiful rise and fall of images and emotion. (Here she is at her best in “If I Should Have a Daughter“)

I love words. I like the way they sound … and how they feel on my tongue: echoing vowels and satisfying fricatives. I love the way words play, meanings slipping one to the next, then up and over. I love the hope of words and the way they make my heart soar.

Today is day 21 of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge.  The challenge began with A on April 1 and continues the alphabet throughout the month, except on Sundays. My theme for the month will be this blog’s tagline: life, books, and all things bookish, so you can expect a little bit of this ‘n that. I’m still reading, though, and I’ll add reviews whenever possible. Thirty days of blogging is a huge commitment for me, but I’m looking forward to meeting and greeting new blog friends.

Today’s word: Um …

Topher McCulloch@Flickr

Topher McCulloch@Flickr

U?

Ummmmm ….

Ugh.

Today is day 20 of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge.  The challenge began with A on April 1 and continues the alphabet throughout the month, except on Sundays. My theme for the month will be this blog’s tagline: life, books, and all things bookish, so you can expect a little bit of this ‘n that. I’m still reading, though, and I’ll add reviews whenever possible. Thirty days of blogging is a huge commitment for me, but I’m looking forward to meeting and greeting new blog friends.

Today’s word: Teenagers

Let’s face it–teenagers get a bad rap. And some of the traits they exhibit, can be maddening. They speak before they think … way too often. (And act before they think, too–it’s that frontal lobe thing.) They can be single-minded to a fault–usually about a love interest or social media rather than studying for school, though. They can be incredibly shallow, focusing waaaaay too much energy on looks. They sleep. A lot.

Seussical the MusicalBut here’s the cast of my high school musical (hey … that might make a great TV show!) Suessical the Musical. These kids–pretty typical drama kids all–worked long hours in practice after school and at home learning their lines, the music, timing, and footwork. I’ve had nearly half of the kids in the cast and I am always blown away when I see them in another light, somewhere other than a seat in B209. In those seats I do see the annoying traits I mentioned. So I coax and nudge and admonish them into reading Lord of the Flies more carefuly or revising their Works Cited page just one more time.

But this afternoon I just smiled. There’s at least two who are pretty sick. You wouldn’t know it from the performance, though. They sparkled. More than a few of their families live a shave too close to having enough to get by. A few deal with baby siblings in their lives, Mom or Dad having started over. You’d never guess how many of them are incredibly shy in the classroom. One is an exchange student from a country about eighteen hours away by plane.

So, yeah, even I complain about teens’ loudness, their brashness, their cockiness. At the end of the play day, though, they are truly a joy.

Today is day 19 of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge.  The challenge began with A on April 1 and continues the alphabet throughout the
month, except on Sundays. My theme for the month will be this blog’s tagline: life, books, and all things bookish, so you can expect a little bit of this ‘n that. I’m still reading, though, and I’ll add reviews whenever possible. Thirty days of blogging is a huge commitment for me, but I’m looking forward to meeting and greeting new blog friends.
Today’s words: Silas Marner

I love George Eliot. I love her life story. She was a free thinker, in and out of the Church until she settled on her own understanding of spirituality. She was a woman of independent means–maybe not by choice, but by her wit and intelligence. She loved openly and passionately, even when her choices meant she was rejected from polite society. She was anything but attractive–but possessed great beauty.

George EliotI love the seemingly quaint moral tales she writes about life in the English countryside in the 19th century, all of which reveal some sort of illicit love and characters who lived on the margins of society–and about how they created (or tried to, anyway) the life they longed for. Adam Bede with Heddy’s forbidden love, unwanted pregnancy, and near-death; Mill on the Floss with Maggie’s love for the hunchback Phillip and that last dying embrace; Middlemarch with Dorothea’s ill-fated marriage and unrequited love.

And of course, Silas Marner, that near-sighted, hunched “old man” (who was actually, if you count the years, only 40-something!) who was brought into the warm embrace of village life when a baby, quite literally, shows up on his doorstep. A cast of characters who are as dear to me as the people who have passed in and out of my own life. Those nasty, haughty Cass boys, the ones you love to hate–Godfrey, who though he appears all heart in his life with Nancy, lived a lie; Eppie, the golden child I always picture as Shirley Temple. And Dolly Winthrup. Gosh, I love that woman and her malapropisms.

It’s a novel about betrayal and the truest of loves. It’s about burying oneself in work or working as an outpouring of love. It’s shutting down and opening up, turning within or reaching out. It’s about connection to each other.

And it all turns around that bent little man with bleary eyes who shields his heart so it can never be broken again–Silas Marner.

Today is day 18 of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge.  The challenge began with A on April 1 and continues the alphabet throughout theR is for recovery
month, except on Sundays. My theme for the month will be this blog’s tagline: life, books, and all things bookish, so you can expect a little bit of this ‘n that. I’m still reading, though, and I’ll add reviews whenever possible. Thirty days of blogging is a huge commitment for me, but I’m looking forward to meeting and greeting new blog friends.
Today’s words: Recovery

Sometimes a word brecoveryecomes so well-used it loses meaning. I think that’s the case with the word recoverPeople magazine headlines every week give a shout-out to some celebrity or other who is in recovery. People can recover from hoarding or cancer, from PTSD or stroke. One can recover from co-dependency.  Or sometimes we say someone recovers a new-found sense of purpose or happiness. But I can also use the word more literally and re-cover the furniture if I have it upholstered in new fabric. I can re-cover the saucepan on the stove. And if little one is sleeping and I tip-toe in and tuck the covers back up over his tummy, I am re-covering him.

According to an online dictionary, recover‘s etymology looks like this:

c.1300, “to regain consciousness,” from Anglo-French rekeverer (13c.),Old French recovrer “come back, return; regain health; procure, get again”(11c.), from Medieval Latin recuperare “to recover” (source of Spanish recobrar, Italian ricoverare). Meaning “to regain health or strength” is from early 14c.; sense of “to get (anything) back” is first attested mid-14c.*

What a fresh look at the word. If someone recovers, they come back, they return, whether it’s a physical or mental illness or addiction. They are aware, once again, and intentional. They have regained their strength.

And what a beautiful image that etymology promises. We should all be in recovery, don’t you think?


*”recover”. Dictionary.com Unabridged. Random House, Inc. 20 Apr. 2016.

Categories: Life

Today is day 17 of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge.  The challenge began with A on April 1 and continues the alphabet throughout the
month, except on Sundays. My theme for the month will be this blog’s tagline: life, books, and all things bookish, so you can expect a little bit of this ‘n that. I’m still reading, though, and I’ll add reviews whenever possible. Thirty days of blogging is a huge commitment for me, but I’m looking forward to meeting and greeting new blog friends.
Today’s words: quarts

Quarts

Canned goods at the Rise ‘n Roll, Shipshewana, Indianna

Back in the day (as the old folks say!) I canned for my family. Just a few things, but just what we wanted and needed. I canned peaches and pears, tomatoes, and pickles. I loved looking at the beautiful Ball jars lined up on my counter, just waiting to hear the pop pop pop of the lids as they sealed. Truth be told, I sometimes left the jars to sit far too long in the kitchen–just because I loved the colors, the glass, the shiny lids. Sooner or later, I’d carry them down to the basement to store til winter. And let me tell you, there’s nothing like the taste of home-canned peaches in February. By the time baby #3 came along I gave it up. I guess I’m not enough of a Pioneer Woman to put up with an August kitchen, prune-y fingers, scalding jars, and sink full of peels–as well as a puppy, part-time job, and, oh, yeah, those three kids. That first winter when I served the boys canned peaches from the store, they asked if I had any “real” peaches. Sometimes I think maybe someday again … but until then, I look longingly at the canned goods at farmer’s markets and sigh.